First [2016]

   

Ar trebui sa ma gandesc la ce-am facut gresit anterior.Dar nimic nu e defapt gresit. Si stii de ce ? Pentru ca ne schimbam constant.And that's beautiful.

   Ce as vrea ? Sa pot sa am incredere. And damn that's a challenge.

    Am inchis cateva usi, dar asta am simtit ca e ceea ce trebuie sa fac la momentul respectiv.

    2015 a fost o avalansa de sentimente,uneori,contradictorii. Dar asa sunt eu.

  Vreau sa vad mai multe locuri ! Si sa cunosc oameni ! Oamenii, asa de dificili cum suntem uneori, suntem defapt atat de frumosi. Si am cunoscut atatia oameni frumosi and damn I'm so happy for that and I thank you. 

  Si cumva, simt ca am lasat o mica parte din mine in sufletul oamenilor pe care i-am cunoscut (sper sa fie de bine)

  [Am incheiat anul putin gol] Nu, nu e chiar asa. Sau?

  Dificili.

  Imi pare rau.

  Imi pare rau pentru lucrurile pe care trebuia sa le fi zis la momentul respectiv. Dar nu am puterea sa dau timpul inapoi. [Din pacate, poate , intr-o zi]

  For you : 

        You are beautiful. And you got so much love to give. Don't ever let anyone tell you something else.Don't believe it if it happens.You deserve best.

[Nowihavetoconvincemyselfofthat]

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Indiferent de cine, ce, cum, un sentiment va ramane. Nu e nimic mai frumos decat -a darui timp-. Respira, bucura-te. Nu o sa-l mai primesti inapoi. But that's the beauty of it. Azi, maine, poimaine. Trec. Cu ce ramai? Cu toate ca probabil am dezamagit si eu la randul meu, ce vreau, e sa-ti aduci aminte vibe-ul fain, de-odata. Si sa nu-l uiti vreoeata. Sau uita-l, dar nu uita de unde a venit. Niciodata.

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  This is for you , if you think I dissapointed.
  Truth is , all I wanted is to let you be. Enjoy the things you never had , because of certain obstacles , you know , I never actually wanted to be one.
  I'm just leaving parts of myself here and there, hoping , one day , when you'll think of me, you'll have a good vibe. I've always wanted to make people enjoy the time they spent around.
  But this isn't the case , and the feeling , the feeling somehow was wrongly interpreted. That's the thing about us , humans.
  We interpret, expect, and forget the good things. We focus on awkward moments and let the good times dissapear. This is not a thing you need to focus too much on. Just some thoughts on a virtual paper that I will virtually burn, because the things, that I write right now,  are my thoughts in a certain moment in time, time that doesen't actually exist.
  And you say I'm a jedi , and I play mind-games. Oh , so naive. I don't let people offend me,got me right here.
  I don't let people get to me.
  Not anymore.
  I don't accept such kind of offers, because the kid over here,  the kid dissapeared. Oh so troubled.      Unfortunately, no expectations are here to be found. And expectations, or plans, or anything regarding that - it scares me.
  Maybe one day you'll understand, that, all I really wanted, is for you to be happy.

Forward [monologue]

Have you ever had a dream ?

What do  you want to be when you grow up ?

Or , who do you want to be ?


Improve quality. Quantity isn't literally nothing. You , little one , have to learn to enjoy the little things.Because nothing is ever more important than enjoying a bit of time alone. Some quality time with the people that matter.

People. You need to learn lots about them. You need to learn to enjoy them without bounds. People, maybe you're still a kid. Or maybe you've grown up and forgot to enjoy them.To trust them. Let me tell you something little one :

People, they all are beautiful in their own way. But for you to see that , you have to understand. And understanding , understanding takes time. Do you have the time ?

I always dissaproved of the concept of not having enough time. You have just about as much time as you actually want to give. You shouldn't have time for excuses though.

Instead of excusing yourself , you should always be honest. Because ain't nobody got time to lose. Not you, nor me.

There are some basics principles I rely on. I think everybody has their own thing. Listen up , not entirely with the ears, but open your heart too. Yes , yes, you are untouchable and limitless. Remember a thing little one : the one you can always count on is yourself. Now , don't become too egocentric. Enjoy your time with others. Because , we all have something to share with others.

You know what I wish for you little one ? To find the ones willing to listen.

Up ; up

Those things you take for granted.

They're not yours to take.

Because nothing lasts forever. So , you can't actually take anything.

The only things , memories.

They'll be carved somehow , in your soul , forever.

And what is more precious then your soul ?

Enjoy the little things.

Transfer knowledge.

Learn , every day ; open up and hear the lesson.

Grow.

"Like as the waves make towards the pebbl'd shore, so do our minutes, hasten to their end"

Furtuna de nisip.

A picat semnalul. Peste tot. Ai vrea sa suni dar nu poti. Defapt nu e nimeni la capatul celalalt al liniei. Si-atunci? Defapt , it's a single player game. Ok, ok. Si-atunci?  Ar trebui sa imi para bine sau...? Dar daca esti putin empatic ce faci? Daca esti putin empatic, dar te tratezi, intrerupi tu semnalul. Poate nu e bine sa ajunga nimeni la tine. Da, chiar cred asta. Tot ceea ce poti sa faci , e sa fii deschis. Dar inlaturi conexiuni. Poate nu face atat de mult sens acum. Dar defapt stii ca face. Bucura-te de lucrurile mici, acelea conteaza. Si sa nu uiti niciodata de tine, in primul rand.

Flowing

You reap what you sow.

How can a human being preach to another human being to let a bit go of themselves , and the same preacher advise another one , who is at the 'let go''level to relax ?

Aren't we a bit , hyprocrite ?

The thing is , I don't really take into consideration preaching. I just am. I do have moral values , even emotional values. But ,''at the moment , the number you're trying to reach is disconnected" , please try again later. Or just , stop trying. Cause it never works that way. It never works if you are overthinking it. If it doesen't feel right , and you don't feel comfortable in a certain situation which you've experienced before , stop. 

Don't put on hold things that are not useful for your personal being. Announce, and leave.

Sometimes, the things you do , they explain the way you are.

The way you was.

The way you've been hurt.

The way you're hurting.

...and , in the end , it's a sum of your soul. 

You find out what makes you , yourself.