Furtuna de nisip.

A picat semnalul. Peste tot. Ai vrea sa suni dar nu poti. Defapt nu e nimeni la capatul celalalt al liniei. Si-atunci? Defapt , it's a single player game. Ok, ok. Si-atunci?  Ar trebui sa imi para bine sau...? Dar daca esti putin empatic ce faci? Daca esti putin empatic, dar te tratezi, intrerupi tu semnalul. Poate nu e bine sa ajunga nimeni la tine. Da, chiar cred asta. Tot ceea ce poti sa faci , e sa fii deschis. Dar inlaturi conexiuni. Poate nu face atat de mult sens acum. Dar defapt stii ca face. Bucura-te de lucrurile mici, acelea conteaza. Si sa nu uiti niciodata de tine, in primul rand.

Flowing

You reap what you sow.

How can a human being preach to another human being to let a bit go of themselves , and the same preacher advise another one , who is at the 'let go''level to relax ?

Aren't we a bit , hyprocrite ?

The thing is , I don't really take into consideration preaching. I just am. I do have moral values , even emotional values. But ,''at the moment , the number you're trying to reach is disconnected" , please try again later. Or just , stop trying. Cause it never works that way. It never works if you are overthinking it. If it doesen't feel right , and you don't feel comfortable in a certain situation which you've experienced before , stop. 

Don't put on hold things that are not useful for your personal being. Announce, and leave.

Sometimes, the things you do , they explain the way you are.

The way you was.

The way you've been hurt.

The way you're hurting.

...and , in the end , it's a sum of your soul. 

You find out what makes you , yourself.

21/04 (minus)

Cand credeai ca totul e pentru totdeauna, vine acea zi. Acea zi in care realizezi ca niciodata nu ar trebui sa spui niciodata...si niciodata sa nu spui pentru totdeauna. Suntem si noi efemeri, pana la urma urmei. Uita-te in oglinda. Esti cel de ieri? Cel de ieri, mai conteaza? Da, suntem oameni si constiinta nu ne permite sa eradicam totalmente conceptul de ieri sau mâine, ca deh, totul ar fi asa simplu. Dar daca e ? De ce sa nu ...fii? De ieri? De mâine. Da, am motivele mele sa scriu asta azi. Pentru că ieri. Dar promit, mie îmi promit în primul rând că ieri a fost frumos, dar e și mai frumos să fie totul în crescendo. Să simți fără să analizezi foarte mult. De la perfecționist la perfecționist, mi-e greu , nu să spun asta, ci să o fac. Pentru că noi, cei care ne punem mult prea multe semne de întrebare....suntem puțini mult prea umani. Nu e un lucru rău. Deloc. Doar că....daca ar fi azi sa fie ieri, îmi cer scuze pentru toate lucrurile pe care nu le-am făcut când am simțit." To live and let live". For all of us. 

As busy as you wish.

"And along with indifference to space, there was an even more 
complete indifference to time. "There seems to be plenty of it", was all I would answer when the investigator asked me to say what I felt about time. Plenty of it, but exactly how much was entirely irrelevant. I could, of course, have looked at my watch but my watch I knew was in another universe. My actual experience had been, was still, of an indefinite duration. Or alternatively, of a perpetual present made up of one continually changing apocalypse.” 
― A. Huxley, The Doors of Perception ; Heaven and Hell

  Why is time relative, people's perception about time is in a constant change,and this can be explained in a logical and rational matter.
  You need to abandon the idea that there is a universal time shared by everything. Time is simply what clocks measure. But clocks are physical objects that exist in the universe, not some eternal transcendent timekeeper that lives outside the universe. (And by 'clock' I mean anything clock-like such as a vibrating atom or an hour glass.)
  Speed is the ratio of space to time. If space and time are absolute, then the speed of light must be relative, depending upon the speed of the observer. The speed of light is absolute and does not depend upon the speed of the observer, therefore, either space or time must be relative. A more detailed algebraic calculation will show that both must be relative.
  I'm trying to make a point , being no physicist , people are always in a time awareness state. And mostly do not have time for certain things , well, lemme' tell ya a secret. You have the time you wish to spend to do a certain thing. You have all the time in the universe. If you really want to spend your time doing a thing , you certainly have the time. Don't drown yourself in illusions. Just be honest with yourself. Do you have the time to do that ?

Ashes to ashes.

What day is it ?

  Today is the day you'll let go of the past. It's not that you rather want to, but you need to. One should not ever focus on the past. Because it'll drag your mother fucking ass down. And there's nothing left about it. It's not like you could go left where nothing's right , or right , where nothing's left. 

  You focus so much on other's potential that you truly forget about yours. And it's your time to shine. The nice people , well , they are always somehow left behind. But that case has rested. How can you even focus on others when your soul is incomplete ?

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 I've been upside down, I don't wanna be the right way 'round , can't find paradise on the ground.All we do is play it safe.Live inside a cage. Break free human.

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 An old friend recently told me that I'm not currently myself. How do you even ? When your life is revolving around others, you can't really define yourself. You don't get to know your own boundaries.It's totally debatable , if you want your life to revolve or not around other people. But recently I've figured that even though we need the feeling of belonging somewhere....we're searching in the wrong places, most of the times.

  One shouldn't even try to replace the blank spaces.

  You don't just go for a refill.

  Grow. (not as in , grow up. that's a trap. just,learn to harvest your soul)

  Discover yourself. Your true self. Not what others want you to be.

  Then love.

  Because nothing can describe that feeling. It shouldn't be described. Love everything you do, love the people around you. Give your best. Don't fuss. Learn to accept that you can't control everything that is happening to you , and that it all eventually happens for a reason, for growth.

  

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  Once upon a time , she turned to ashes. And the phoenix arrived.

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Scrie-ti propria carte.

  Inca un an e aproape gata. Inca un capitol s-a incheiat. 

  As vrea sa scriu restul cartii din calatorii. Voluntariate. Petreceri . Experiente.

  

  Sa pot sa aduc o contributie cat de mica , vis-a-vis de interconexiunea umana. Un zambet. O lacrima.O lectie.

  Sa dobandesc cunostiinte pe care pana acum le-am pasat.

  Si nu , aceasta nu e o postare de 'an nou , viata noua'. Pentru ca nu e niciodata asa. Oamenii trec prin schimbari constante , care ajung sa le defineasca personalitatea. Asta daca nu sunt usor influentabili. A fi maleabil e pacat. Pentru ca trebuie sa ai punctul tau de vedere , propriile principii si vise.

  Daca chiar doresti sa faci ceva. Fa-o ! Nu te uita inapoi , sa nu-ti pese de parerile celorlalti. Pentru ca daca acel lucru e ceea ce te face sa te simti bine , ce mai conteaza ? In limite legale , evident. Daca te taie capul sa pleci unde vezi cu ochii , pleaca. Daca de asta are nevoie sufletul tau sa-si recapete echilibrul , da-i bataie. Nu te uita inapoi.

  Daca crezi ca locul tau nu e intr-o corporatie , nu o lua in directia aceea. Da , capitalismul e un adevar crancen , dar exista alternative.

  Vrei sa locuiesti intr-o cabana la munte ? Du-te. Vrei sa locuiesti pe o plaja , alaturi de valuri si carti? Cine te opreste ? 

  Aceasta nu e o strategie de marketing. Poti sa faci tot ceea ce visezi. Tot ceea ce iti propui. Da , trebuie sa tragi de tine pentru asta. Dar se poate. Orice ai face , nu intra in hora , nu te abate de la targetul propus.

  Gandeste pentru tine.

  Viseaza pentru tine.

 Dar nu uita sa comunici.

Midnight feels.

  Oh dear lover.
  Whoever you are.Wherever you are.
  Human beings fascinate me. We are all a little piece of heaven , waiting to uncover ourselves. Our sins. Our happiness. Our happy endings.
  We are here , now. And that is all that matters. Won't think about the past , slightly stopping myself from thinking about the future. Because the present is all that matters.
  We have so much to learn from eachother. About our characters, about potentials. Every human being is beautiful , even though we are the humans that destroyed the beauty that surrounded us. That is what we need to recover. We don't need money. We don't need fame. We need to see beyond all the things that society brings forward. We need to see our inner beauty.
  We need to love. Our own selves , the people that are near, and mother nature.
  How do we get there ? How do we get past the routine ?
  We are surrounded by ideas , but we can't find our own. We don't dare to raise our voice. Is that a cause of fear ? Why do we let fear getting in the way of our own lives. What is fear ? Fear of thinking , fear of being called insane , fear of stepping out of the crowd ?
  But what does the crowd have to offer ?
  Think that if you march with them , you get something ? No , you get in the point of no return. You get old, looking in a mirror , and wonder "What have I done with my life?". And then you look back. You see it. The crowd. But you can't see yourself.
  Where were you all these years honey ? Where are all the dreams you had ?
  Thought a new car would make you happy ? Or a new place to live will bring you joy ? I'm sorry about you , because you left your heart out.
  The things that will make you truly happy are the moments you spent with other people. Talking and listening. Personally , I'm a listener.
  So dear you , whoever you are , wherever you are. If you need somebody to listen , I'm here. Because we all need to be listened.